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Hey guys,
This afternoon I suppose you could say I was "triggered". I had a good friend of mine reach out to myself with a funny screenshot of what are called "memes" - saying your Rockstar Name is the color of your underwear and the last thing you ate.
Yellow Tagalongs anybody? Didn't say anything - just kinda chuckled and went to the next message.
Well; she has kids and she brought up what our generations version of Paw Patrol would be. So immediately I thought of Blues Clues because being raised in the late 90s and early 2000s; it would have just made sense. That or Sesame Street.
Well anyway, she said Bob the Builder because of the storyline - so I piped back in that case Dora the Explorer kind of has a storyline - but then it was like a flashback hit me. And I just picked up and left the conversation because it just brought back bad memories.
Well anyway - I'm left jotting down my feelings because i remember at the babysitters house and growing up prior to my Dad's second marriage - having accidents as a kid; and I had so many of them. But having to deal with the trauma of being made fun of or talked down to - brought a wave of bad memories into my brain when talking with her because it reminded myself of my current medical situation but also my past.
Like in the book - "The Body Keeps The Score". It's funny how mentioning one tv show just clicks on the recording button of your brain. Sitting on the couch all over again in the back den.
I hated it - every minute of it because when your little; you don't want to have episodes. But you can't control it - and it just makes me that more upset as an adult suffering from severe urgency and bladder spasms that it's those feelings that bring back the negative emotions of my childhood.
Anyway, I have a male support group I usually open up about this kind of stuff to but I haven't truly opened up about my feelings and emotions lately on here - just recent things going on in my day to day life.
It's good to "check in" every once in a while I suppose with your emotions and mental health. In good news; I have been playing Lego Star Wars The Skywalker Sega on my Xbox; so that is a positive - the graphics are insane! I was kinda disappointed that less companies are enhancing games for Xbox One X due to the new generation of consoles (Series S and Series X) - but I was happily surprised to see my console upgraded the resolution and it supports 4k and HDR.
So trying to think of the positives in that sense to keep my mind away from bad memories.
Does anybody else can relate to continence related PTSD?
Blessings In Christ,
Honeeecombs
This afternoon I suppose you could say I was "triggered". I had a good friend of mine reach out to myself with a funny screenshot of what are called "memes" - saying your Rockstar Name is the color of your underwear and the last thing you ate.
Yellow Tagalongs anybody? Didn't say anything - just kinda chuckled and went to the next message.
Well; she has kids and she brought up what our generations version of Paw Patrol would be. So immediately I thought of Blues Clues because being raised in the late 90s and early 2000s; it would have just made sense. That or Sesame Street.
Well anyway, she said Bob the Builder because of the storyline - so I piped back in that case Dora the Explorer kind of has a storyline - but then it was like a flashback hit me. And I just picked up and left the conversation because it just brought back bad memories.
Well anyway - I'm left jotting down my feelings because i remember at the babysitters house and growing up prior to my Dad's second marriage - having accidents as a kid; and I had so many of them. But having to deal with the trauma of being made fun of or talked down to - brought a wave of bad memories into my brain when talking with her because it reminded myself of my current medical situation but also my past.
Like in the book - "The Body Keeps The Score". It's funny how mentioning one tv show just clicks on the recording button of your brain. Sitting on the couch all over again in the back den.
I hated it - every minute of it because when your little; you don't want to have episodes. But you can't control it - and it just makes me that more upset as an adult suffering from severe urgency and bladder spasms that it's those feelings that bring back the negative emotions of my childhood.
Anyway, I have a male support group I usually open up about this kind of stuff to but I haven't truly opened up about my feelings and emotions lately on here - just recent things going on in my day to day life.
It's good to "check in" every once in a while I suppose with your emotions and mental health. In good news; I have been playing Lego Star Wars The Skywalker Sega on my Xbox; so that is a positive - the graphics are insane! I was kinda disappointed that less companies are enhancing games for Xbox One X due to the new generation of consoles (Series S and Series X) - but I was happily surprised to see my console upgraded the resolution and it supports 4k and HDR.
So trying to think of the positives in that sense to keep my mind away from bad memories.
Does anybody else can relate to continence related PTSD?
Blessings In Christ,
Honeeecombs
