Hey @ayam;
I can sympathize to the feelings of being nervous or scared. But fear not says Dumbledore - you will always have help if you know where to turn on the light
. Or as the quote goes.
The beautiful thing is - is that you should never be fearful but fear itself. I have been learning those skills recently as I have had people in my life who want to target me - but I keep safe distance from.
I suffer from mental ailments and social problems - but am currently working on getting the necessary resources to get peers to advocate for me rather than working with a system that is working against me. So in that case - I am heading in the right direction.
I would strongly urge you if you have any mental or health problems is to find someone to talk to about them - I am working with a program to help me get diagnosed as I better communicate via technology than in real life - so in that sense - I hope that I will get properly diagnosed so that I can start to live a better and more independent life.
And remember - you have the people with the NAFC and online who are on your side - no matter where you are from. It says you are from the United States so that means you have constitutional rights and freedoms to be able to express yourself so that others can relate or hear your voice.
The only downside to that is that with constitutional rights - others can voice there side even if it is means, unfair, and unright. But that's the beauty of our country.
Will be praying for you @ayam - things will get better.
Blessings In Christ,
Honeeecombs