Feeling so dirty

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The fact is, when I'm at work is when I'm affected by my incontinence the most. I feel dirty all the time. I feel as if a spotlight is on me whenever I get up to do something. I feel so defeated when I know an incontinence episode is coming but I'm in the middle of a task that I just can't drop. Then have to rush away sometimes not even being able to bring my cleanup stuff along. I stand in the stall with my pants down trying to cool off and dry up. But nothing has changed once I head back to my desk. I am not adjusting to the moisture and heat and feeling so dirty that stays with me at work and then some - all day long. I go to extremes to keep it secret so I don't think I can find any caring and suppotr in real life because it is just too shameful to be this way.

 

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It is good to hear an honest voice on this topic.
Thank you for venting

 

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Your response is actually greatly appreciated.

 

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My guess is most everyone on this thread struggles with these feelings.There's a lot of courage and creative efforts to work with our issue for the most part, which i also greatly admire.Hope today is a better day.

 

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Eventually we all have to find a way to get through those feelings. It’s not easy and seems to always revisit our thoughts but it’s who you are that’s important and finding a way to accept yourself for who you are is the most important thing in life!! Be good to yourself and others and life will be good to you!! I truly hope you find a way to get through this without too much pain and self doubt because in the end it’s about you!!

 

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It occurs to me how may adults live with more visible or less health issues or visible ones. For instance, someone has migraines that debilitate their plans, dandruff or a nose they despise and also go around on a silent self loathing. Once i hit 40 i realised that everyone i got to know had some issue from uncontrollable flatulence to psoriasis that made them feel ugly, made them feel not attractive "enough".