Oh thank you so much for responding to me. I'm having a really bad day and I was being to wonder....well thank you for taking the time to address me. It really means alot to me. My best friend told me almost the same thing , she refuses to put herself in that pain. It's that very pain that is making me hurt so much at this moment. I know I get overly sensitive (emotionally) when I'm hurting. I went outside for a "smoke" and it's not quite 20 degrees F here today. The cold really seems to effect my bottom parts in a very painful way for one thing. Then I'll remind myself that I only have me to blame- my bad habit. About the Doctor- I have had her for years so she knows the situation. I just last week had a uroscan and a cysto. Scattered stones in both kidneys, each kidney have a small cyst, some kind of mass on my adrenalbut no mass in my bladder. That was my main concern because I remember hearing that in women who smoke bladder cancer is second to lung cancer.If that makes any sense- not because of the facts but the way in which I am trying to convey it. Anyway, nothing really bad. Oh- a good(?) amount of blood in my urine but that is always my jam.I was watching YouTube last night and it was about a urologist test called a ..oh dear... brain fart. I swear I may have peed out my brains!!! Probably in my driveway!!! Or the front porch along with all my dress shoes I destroyed. I think you were mentioning this test the other day. You had to have a cath(?) Do you have any idea about what test it is that I am trying...urodynamics? I wonder if that would be indicated for me? Now fear not - I am just kinda talking out loud per say. I will talk to my Doctor on Monday. I'm afraid that maybe the cystoscope possibility introduced a germ? It feels like the beginning of a UTI. Alot of pressure in them thar'parts. Sort of what I would imagine a prolapse would feel like. Feels like i need to pee all the time. Very miserable. When I go to sit down at first it hurts but then that pressure being applied from the couch cushions is somewhat of a relief. Not initially though. I dose of an antibiotic isn't prescribed after a cystoscope? Anyway, about the urodynamics test...is that what you had? It seemed like a long process. If that is what you had, would you mind sharing a bit of your experience with me? I know everyone is different and I promise you I realize the importance of seeking a medical professional's advice. And no one but a professional should offer advice of a medical nature. But could you please perhaps share from say....the human aspect of the procedure? I will ask her about it on Monday as well. When she finished the cystoscope it almost seemed like she couldn't get out of the room quick enough. Told me nothing was growing and to make a follow up in three months. Of course I didn't try to stop her because I knew I was already starting to lose what was left in my bladder. I wanted to be alone in the room when I stood up. Just rereading what I've written I feel like telling myself: "Buck up and get your big girl panties...never mind that. I'll come up with a different expression. That wasn't going to end well.But thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking the time to talk to me. I can't tell you how much it means to me. Losing my bodily control is bad enough- I don't want to lose my sense of humor as well. I suppose ultimately that ball falls in my court and my court only. But again it is with much gratitude that I thank you for talking to me.
an opioid painkiller.