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Hi people! Please excuse typos or half thoughts. Im not doing very well and cant think well right now. I have been very proud to be a member here for i think 3 or a bit more years now. I have been helped mentally by many and even financially once by a couple of absolute angels. I was homeless and recovering from surgeries and injuries and they provided the ability for deposit and electric. They pretty much literally saved my life.
On November 11, 2020, i went to my hospital for chest pain. I do have heart issues. I simply needed an emergency nitro refill. The doc wasnt convinced it was only my heart. I have a huge history of digestive issues and surgeries from my mouth to my butt. Lol
He did a ct and admitted me and did a upper scope. The found a massive ulcer covering the lower stomach that traveled through to the duodenum and small intestine. A standard biopsy was done. A few days later i was called to see my doc. He was not alone. He had a counselor with him. I knew why they called me in now. The ulcer was not an ulcer. It was cancer. I left after the appointment and have ignored all calls and emails from them.i didnt want to deal with it. Last week i had a visitor. My doctor came to my house. We talked and even went shooting after. It was awesome. I own over 150 guns. Many relics. Lots of family owned ones too. He convinced me to go get another ct scan and upper egd. (Scope). More blood work and a mri, then a fun pet scan then a bone marrow biopsy. (That sucked total ass) So friday i saw my doc again. I have cancer in my limph nodes, pancreas and liver along with the primary stomach cancer and small intestine. I have felt worse daily for several weeks now. So his news wasnt a complete surprise.
So, im saying this now, before i cant. Thank you all of you beautiful people. I have truly valued your words and kindness. You have all been so nice and some of you(you know who you are) have been life savers. To the point of helping me in mire ways and in kinder ways than my own family. Anyone who knows you or will come to know you are and will be truly blessed.
My eyes are already getting yellow. I have stopped eating solid food. I get fluids from mainly an iv. I have an estimated 2 to 3 weeks left but probably less with blood toxic lefels rising from liver failure and no real nutrition intake. As my liver failes and acid levels increase in blood i will get more confused. Like dementia kinda. This will likely kill me first. Lots of liquids though. Holy cow, lots of diaper changes. Yes guys, i have a nurse at home and yes she is cute. And yes i have had help changing. But its all professional and medical. Lol
Soon, in the next week or so, i will be closing any online accounts. I dont want any left open. But also, i have been given very strong pain meds but havent taken any yet. But i will when it gets bad and i dont want to post anything while drugged up. I will read everything first but cant promise to respond, at least not to all. I wish the very best for all of you. May the Lord bless you.
With all my love,
Steven1980. 1/18/2021
P.S. 2020 sucked.
good luck 2021.
On November 11, 2020, i went to my hospital for chest pain. I do have heart issues. I simply needed an emergency nitro refill. The doc wasnt convinced it was only my heart. I have a huge history of digestive issues and surgeries from my mouth to my butt. Lol
He did a ct and admitted me and did a upper scope. The found a massive ulcer covering the lower stomach that traveled through to the duodenum and small intestine. A standard biopsy was done. A few days later i was called to see my doc. He was not alone. He had a counselor with him. I knew why they called me in now. The ulcer was not an ulcer. It was cancer. I left after the appointment and have ignored all calls and emails from them.i didnt want to deal with it. Last week i had a visitor. My doctor came to my house. We talked and even went shooting after. It was awesome. I own over 150 guns. Many relics. Lots of family owned ones too. He convinced me to go get another ct scan and upper egd. (Scope). More blood work and a mri, then a fun pet scan then a bone marrow biopsy. (That sucked total ass) So friday i saw my doc again. I have cancer in my limph nodes, pancreas and liver along with the primary stomach cancer and small intestine. I have felt worse daily for several weeks now. So his news wasnt a complete surprise.
So, im saying this now, before i cant. Thank you all of you beautiful people. I have truly valued your words and kindness. You have all been so nice and some of you(you know who you are) have been life savers. To the point of helping me in mire ways and in kinder ways than my own family. Anyone who knows you or will come to know you are and will be truly blessed.
My eyes are already getting yellow. I have stopped eating solid food. I get fluids from mainly an iv. I have an estimated 2 to 3 weeks left but probably less with blood toxic lefels rising from liver failure and no real nutrition intake. As my liver failes and acid levels increase in blood i will get more confused. Like dementia kinda. This will likely kill me first. Lots of liquids though. Holy cow, lots of diaper changes. Yes guys, i have a nurse at home and yes she is cute. And yes i have had help changing. But its all professional and medical. Lol
Soon, in the next week or so, i will be closing any online accounts. I dont want any left open. But also, i have been given very strong pain meds but havent taken any yet. But i will when it gets bad and i dont want to post anything while drugged up. I will read everything first but cant promise to respond, at least not to all. I wish the very best for all of you. May the Lord bless you. With all my love,
Steven1980. 1/18/2021
P.S. 2020 sucked.
good luck 2021.