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Hey all. So after my very public and humiliating accident little over a week ago, I’ve decided that it’s time for me to be fully 24/7. Monday I saw all my doctors and from all the tests and all that fun stuff my issues are getting increasingly worse faster than initially thought. I have 6 months to a year and that’s if I’m really REALLY lucky before I am completely incontinent. I go next week to discuss the option of maybe thinking about trying surgery, but I know even without going over it yet that it’s a risky option, might not last, or even work since all my issues are because of muscles and nerves being damaged/dying. I’ve talked about it a lot with my partner and when it comes down to it, it’s my choice. I have a lot of spreadsheets and pros/con lists to make before I make a decision, and if I was to have to choose tomorrow I wouldn’t have an answer to the very last second, and even then. I have a couple mandatory surgeries I have to get in the next year, so I’m thinking that I need to focus on those first and foremost. Since making the choice to be 24/7 whether I’m out of the house or at home, I’ve started to feel a little bit better about things. I haven’t really left the house after what happened a bit over last week except to go to the doctors, but I will start slowly easing myself back into going out. I know I have to form a plan of letting those super close to me know about this, just in case, but will cross that bridge when I need to. Fighting with the insurance has been an absolute blast…. *sarcasm naturally* but insurance has always been the devil. For the time being and most likely for the seeable future insurance will not cover any of the supplies I need, but luckily that’s not really an issue knock on wood and hopefully it never will be. Things with my partner are decent, but it’s a learning process for both of us, and we’ve always had a super unconventional relationship so at least that makes things a tiny bit easier. So yeah like the title says, things are not awesome, but they aren’t as bad as they were. I have decided to stop fighting the need to wear 24/7 and stop hating myself anytime something happened,and started accepting the fact that yes I’m in my mid 30’s and I’m well on my way to being fully incontinent. Now I can start figuring out how to live my life.