Well ok. Thanks to everyone who extended a welcome to me.
Let me start by saying I'm no stranger to bedwetting, as I dealt with it as a kid into my teens. And diapers too, my parents put me in night diapers when I was 10 or so. And I stayed with them until I stopped wetting around 16.
I had a good long dry spell for about 10yrs where I was only having accidents once or twice a month. Then in my 20's something bad happened to me...I was sexually assaulted. And that took a toll on me. Not long after the incident, my wetting started again.
At first I thought it was just a random thing, an accident here or there, nothing major. Right? But as time went on it became more and more regular again, to the point it was nightly. So having been a bedwetter as a kid, it was fairly easy for me to go back to diapers at night. At first, I thought it was a temporary thing, that it was a phase and would die down again. But it didn't.
Over the years I've had therapy a few times. That's how I came to know I suffer from PTSD from the incident. Its never been easy for me to discuss even in the safe space of therapy. But it is what it is.
Eventually I reached a point where I've been able to mostly accept what happened and stopped blaming myself, and stop feeling like a piece of shit over it...but even still, the bedwetting hasn't left me.
At this point in time, I'm mostly at peace with my experience, and just live with the bedwetting as a result of it. So yes, I'm 33 and still wet the bed. Yes, I wear diapers at night to manage the issue.
Even though it is dreadful at times and really gets me down, I do my best to live my life and not let myself be defined as a bedwetter...even though it weighs heavily on my mind almost every day.
