I am new to this site & honestly new to the whole concept of reaching out for support to discuss this issue... However, it's finally hitting me that my reality is me pissing myself uncontrollably till I leave this world! I hate it! I don't see any possibility of me being able to hold a regular job, let alone have any level of a normal life! I am so overwhelmed I have been finding that at least once (but most often more) a day for sometimes up to 1½ hours that I am ending up just crying hysterically & or screaming at the top of my lungs over the mess I am constantly trying to clean up! I don't have any specific diagnosis.... The Drs keep stopping their evaluations at my weight. Yes, I am fat! Matter of fact, I am indeed considered as morbidly obese at 300 lbs and 5'7", and I have always been told by Drs (way before I became fat) that my bones are extremely dense and there would never be a possibility for me to meet the standard weight charts suggested weight for my height. At one point, when dieting diligently I got down to 30 lbs over my standard charts healthy weight and I ended up having multiple people ask me if I was struggling with anorexic behaviors because I was looking malnourished. Even though I was on the specific plan and it was a program where all the food was dulled out in certain quantities and all that so there was no way that that was happening.
Anyways, what I am leaning towards with my googling and scholar Google research is that this likely has something to do with my ankle injury which has left me with severe mobility issues and it's just progressively gotten worse and now over the last couple years I really cannot even walk more often times than not and I've noticed a gradual increase in that non-stop in it coincides with that and I don't I can't get anybody to discuss this with me they won't even they don't even stop to think about it which is really frustrating. So anyways that's me hello everybody by the way I know I sound really cranky but I'm really frustrated with this nonsense and I'm really tired of it impacting my life I really really just want to be able to do what I need to do without peeing on myself! And yes I do wear the diapers I wear pads in the diapers for extra absorbency I use the the keypads that are on the furniture and everything else matter of fact I use multiples of them and yeah I'm still constantly cleaning up pain so anyways hello