Archives1
Staff member
I am aware all night of waiting for "IT" to start. Usually around 2am i fall lightly asleep even if i get up to pee at that time. Its a dribble. Then its like a pump as i do relax and theoughout the night i am aware of a pump of urine sometimes seemingly endless flow flooding.
It doesnt matter diapers it is the sensation of my body that keeps me partially awake and the pool around me as it doesnt absorb. i generally fall deeper asleep in the "wee hours" of early morning after a light sleep due to the awareness.
i find the sightest touch of my hand to my belly creates the feeling of a hard push and it pumps worse.
This makes it hard to arise in a timely way as it will continue unabated as i sit up and some nights i sleep so poorly i have to nap in the day.
its not the diaper, its the sensation of my bladder taking on a life of its own.
Needless to say i have to do laundry of pads and sheets every single morning but time it to not distress others by hauling the wet stuff into the upstairs laundry past their bedrooms as they prepare for the day.
I live withmy 5 year old grand daughter who is a truth teller and the type to loudly tell anyone of strange smells or any personal activity of anyone in our household so im waiting to have my incontinence being broadcast any time now. She jas no filter snd not mean spirited just way too much information.
im almost beyond embarrassment but i am sick of my body taking off like a run away sump pump.
It doesnt matter diapers it is the sensation of my body that keeps me partially awake and the pool around me as it doesnt absorb. i generally fall deeper asleep in the "wee hours" of early morning after a light sleep due to the awareness.
i find the sightest touch of my hand to my belly creates the feeling of a hard push and it pumps worse.
This makes it hard to arise in a timely way as it will continue unabated as i sit up and some nights i sleep so poorly i have to nap in the day.
its not the diaper, its the sensation of my bladder taking on a life of its own.
Needless to say i have to do laundry of pads and sheets every single morning but time it to not distress others by hauling the wet stuff into the upstairs laundry past their bedrooms as they prepare for the day.
I live withmy 5 year old grand daughter who is a truth teller and the type to loudly tell anyone of strange smells or any personal activity of anyone in our household so im waiting to have my incontinence being broadcast any time now. She jas no filter snd not mean spirited just way too much information.
im almost beyond embarrassment but i am sick of my body taking off like a run away sump pump.
but we can all at least know we have each other on this sight to help us through the day!! You seem like a wonderful person and full of love, so just hang in there and know we are HERE for you!!