Nerves and anxiety.

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About 30+ hours before I have my procedure (Still don't know the exact time yet, will get a call tomorrow) and I am just sitting down to play so Call of Duty because I am dealing with a lot of anxiety.

I know that this is only one part of everything that is going to have to be done to give me any kind of normal back but I have been a mess all week so far. (bound up and stressed out)... I Know, I know. Noting I can do about what has to be done but it has me all kinds of stressed out and talking to my mom she heard it in my voice.


So now I am going to play Call of Duty until I decide what I want for dinner and then try to de-stress.

It suck not know what time or if I have to do any other prep but I guess tomorrow morning I will have to be up early to find out.

 

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One step at a time, time.

 

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One of the techniques I learned to reduced anxiety is one the navy seals used: deep breath and relax.-take 8 deep breaths then blow it out in 6 -I might have to look it up but this is sort of what I do when I find myself getting anxious. Deep breathing is always a good way to relax and clean your mind-of course I pray also. I thank the Lord for all our blessings. I was watching some program where they went back 2-3 thousand years and how people were living-we have it made in the shade I tell you. I am grateful for my hot water, my pillow, I can walk into almost or any grocery store and buy what I have a fancy for. The fruits and vegetables are plentiful. Today I bought cherries, tree ripe peaches, yogurt-etc. We are very spoiled and forget all the good things to be grateful for. Prayers are with you and be relax-I had another tooth break on me and I am an appointment next week to put one in. It seems I have one tooth go on me each year. I think of my Mom who had false teeth-so I blame this one on genes. the other crap is mistakes I made doing the best I though I could. I had a lousy husband who only though about himself. he was very selfish. Most people are. It is not good to be that way, we have a lot to give and kindness, compassion and understanding and not being judgmental all is part of living a valued life.

 

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Not sure what the procedure is, but prayers for success.

 

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Just did an operation for something else (hand arthritis damage), & they didn't tell me the time until the late afternoon before.
Didn't sleep well, but apparently got some while I was out of it. It does suck.
Barb has the right idea.
Not sure if there is really a connection between nerve block and anaestesia, and Incontinence, but i've had several nights (and days, to some extent), of having to go more or get up more. Not much additional leakage, thank the Lord.
Usually, I get lost in a book, or trade magazines, to relax. Not a "gamer", and reading the news on computer is sure an anxiety trigger! So I don't do that to relax, for sure.
Good you-tube videos on things I'm interested in, music (especially "Playing For Change" music videos). For me, it all usually helps.

 

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@Nocontrol

I am having Botox to paralyze the muscles in my rectum in a long shot to get the muscles to relax and reset.

My anxiety is three parts.

1) I don't know the time thus I don't know who is going to have to take me to the appointment.

2) This is essentially going to leave me fully bowel incontinent (Sometimes I can make it when at home but it has gotten harder and the nerves are damaged so sometimes I get false alarms and sometimes nothing at all).

3) I was already pretty mush shut-in. now I will be lucky if I ever want to leave my house.

The big hope is not for anything better but rather that it will do away with some of the pain and spasms.

Even my doctor that is doing this knows that it is a long shot and I will still likely need another surgery but his hope is that if does note that it can show the need for something else.

I will still need a mobility study done by my GI, I will still need other tests after this that I don't know about, and it is just likely just going to show how bad things really are with my bowels.

Also, I will have to see my urologist but that happens in September anyway so.

My hope is that after this the speed that other things get tried will be quicker.

 

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Sounds like a multi step process that will play out over some length of time. I can see how this is stressful. Regarding the second point, is that a temporary side effect or there until next procedure? Try to line up available rides if you haven't for different possible times. Try to take things as they come. You're in my prayers. Btw, casual gamer here. I've spent many hours engrossed in front of the screen to get my mind off of my own medical issues. Hernia surgery may, prostectamy July. Bladder issues now. Not so good at cod tho but more campaign stuff. Fun fun. Best of luck and keep us informed.

 

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@Nocontrol

The doctor is going to expand/open the muscles and then paralyze them with Botox. It is called a chemical Sphincterotomy.

Chemical because it is temporary in terms of the Botox will wear off after a few months.

The doctor already talked to me about what to expect. If there is any side effects then I will know by the follow up.

 

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Thanks for sharing. Stay positive.

 

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Wishing you well for the procedure and everything that follows.
Take each step as it comes and you'll get through.

 

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Hi FlGuy, Here's wishing you the best for the procedure and for a quick recovery and good results. I guess the only thing I can add is just take it one day at a time. That's what a lot of people tell me! So just conquer the day at hand and then move on to the next!

 

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@FlGuy-blessings and prayers are with you. I am to the point I only leave the house when I have to also. For a lot of reasons. Keep exercising, the nerves will respond by stimulations. IF you have a stationary bike in the home, I ride mind all the time. Thanks. Wishing you the best knowing you are not alone. You will be find, no worries. God is always in control. You have food, family and some medical care. Our medical care system has gone down the tubes in my opinion.

 

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Appointment is at 7 am tomorrow and my mom is taking me. Got to shower tonight with special soap and again in the morning. I just hope to have a good night without a bowel accident. I can sleep all day tomorrow after and then I'll figure out everything else.

 

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You'll be in our thoughts.

 

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I get anxious myself over stupid stuff, breath deep-what I am dong right now. Then exhale-you will be find-You are so bless to have your Mom. I miss my Mom a lot. I would have loved to live with her and help take care of her.

 

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Hi FlGuy, It's good you have your mom to take you to your appointment. You are lucky to have her around! I've heard about the special soap, I think it's standard procedure for something like what you're having. Here's wishing you all the best and that it's truly a case of anticipating is much worse than the actual event! Everybody is pulling for you!
It's like @BarbaraDrabek said right above, I, too, worry about all of the silly stuff. I think it's human nature. But we just need to hold our heads up and not let that silly stuff get the better of us!!!
We'll be looking forward to seeing you back after it's done!